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हार्वर्ड और एमआईटी वैज्ञानिक का दिमाग बढ़ाने वाला आहार
एक हार्वर्ड और एमआईटी वैज्ञानिक का असली जीवन आहार
सही आहार आपको स्मार्ट बना सकता है क्या आप होशियार बनना चाहते हैं?
इंटरनेट पर "स्मार्ट कैसे बनें" की खोज करने पर आपके मस्तिष्क के स्वास्थ्य को बढ़ाने के लिए दर्जनों विकल्प सामने आएंगे, जिनमें मुफ्त ऑनलाइन मेमोरी गेम्स से लेकर $3,000 "संज्ञानात्मक वृद्धि उपकरण" शामिल हैं। ये सभी चीजें अच्छी और अच्छी हैं, लेकिन विशेषज्ञों का कहना है कि इनमें से कोई भी आपके दिमाग की शक्ति में उतना फर्क नहीं डालेगा जितना आप हर रोज खाते हैं।
आहार मस्तिष्क के स्वास्थ्य को कैसे प्रभावित करता है
हार्वर्ड और एमआईटी में बायोमेडिकल इंजीनियर जेफरी कार्प, पीएचडी कहते हैं, "आपका आहार आपके मस्तिष्क के स्वास्थ्य में बहुत बड़ी भूमिका निभाता है।" वास्तव में, यह आपकी संज्ञानात्मक प्रक्रियाओं, आपके मूड और न्यूरोलॉजिकल बीमारियों के प्रति आपकी संवेदनशीलता पर बहुत अधिक प्रभाव डालने के लिए कहा जाता है।"
डॉ कार्प का ब्रेन-बूस्टिंग नाश्ता
यह जानते हुए, यह समझ में आता है कि वह इष्टतम मस्तिष्क स्वास्थ्य के लिए अपने आहार को हैक कर लेता है। जब आप दुनिया के शीर्ष दो संस्थानों में बायोमेडिकल शोध कर रहे होते हैं, तो आप चाहते हैं कि आपका दिमाग पूरी तरह से सक्रिय रहे, है ना? हमारे लिए भाग्यशाली है, उनका भोजन योजना का पालन किया जा सकता है।
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#harvard aur mit#vaigyanik#dimag badhane wala aahar#nootropic#smart drug#brain food#memory booster#focus booster#concentration booster#cognitive enhancer
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Dean's plan to defeat Doc Benton | 3.15 Time Is On My Side
#my smart bby#pk rewatches spn number ?#deans out of the box thinking#3.15#deans mechanical mind#season 3#dean and drugs
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Alright apparently I’m now outnumbered in my small office for not carrying anything defensive like pepper spray, a taser, or a metal baton every day.
#poll#polls#girl we are in the SUBURBS#what do you MEAN you carry pepper spray on your keychain#what do you MEAN you have a metal baton in your car right now#what do you MEAN my boss bought pepper gel for the front desk#WE ARE IN THE SUBURBS?? AN OFFICE IN THE SUBURBS?? A SMALL SLEEPY OFFICE BUILDING?? IN?? THE?? SUBURBS??#I used to work in the sketchiest drug riddled street in the city where I’d get off shift at 1am carrying lots of cash#I never carried anything#I learned how to ominously chant in Gregorian hymns and people stopped fucking with me#I told a man in a chipper customer service voice that unfortunately today was Wednesday and not Sunday so he couldn’t rob me at knifepoint#and he got befuddled long enough for me to hop onto the train#am I just unusually Looney Toons coded? is that my secret?#STREET SMARTS -throws decoy wallet-#my boss genuinely wondered if he should train me how to use pepper gel by going into the parking lot and getting sprayed by it#because?? that’s?? how?? he?? learned??#SIR
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my favorite scully moments from s2
after the x-files are shut down, she gets moved to teach at the academy, and in episode 1 she does a little monologue on how a person’s body is a physical manifestation of a lifetime, which one of the students describes as “spooky”
when mulder sneaks off to puerto rico in the same episode, she goes into his place to try and figure where tf he went, and prevents his sneaking about being caught by the investigators who broke into his home with the power of feeding his fish
lecturing about the dangers of eating raw steak in episode 2, then getting lost down a rabbit hole of worm science
when no one was answering the door in episode 3, she just walks in. this made me laugh hysterically, i cannot explain. both of these guys WILL enter your home.
every single time she is a bit of a medical nerd, like when she learns about the surgery that allowed people to survive without sleep in episode 4, which she describes as “incredible”
(and the freckles + flower earrings combo were also a fave)
when she scans the piece of metal that came from duane barry in a grocery store in episode 6, and the cash register goes crazy. and she denies involvement and just walks away LMAOOO <- honestly i'd do the same!!
she wakes up from her coma in episode 8 and wants to write a thank you note to the nurse that took such good care of her, only to learn no such nurse ever existed. scully got to witness the paranormal for once!!!!
in episode 9, someone brings up a volcano scientist in conversation, and she says she had heard he was brilliant, which means that somehow she is keeping up with volcano news. she is a woman of many layers.
being deeply worried about this scared looking grad student she just met, and once again not waiting for an answer to enter her room and figure out if she is okay
(and when said grad student is being consumed by a fungus, scully thinks quickly enough to get herself locked behind a door, keeping herself safe, despite being handcuffed and otherwise looking death by fungus in the face)
in episode 11, mulder walks into his office, only to learn she has been there and has been going through his stuff since 6 in the morning. queen of getting results!
in the same episode, an old man overdoses on mushroom pills, and she shifts into Doctor Mode, yelling about “ventricular fibrillation” and “milligrams of lidocaine” and it was, like every other time she goes Doctor Mode, so deeply satisfying to watch
when she meets the two cops in episode 12, and can immediately tell they are having an affair and that the detective is pregnant, and despite the detective pleading with her not to tell a soul, the absolute MILLISECOND she is reunited with mulder, she spills the tea. and he is SHOCKED! <- arguably my favorite moment in the entire series so far
(and, to make the woman feel more comfortable, she confesses to also having had feelings for coworkers before which. elaborate on that, please)
but she really does care; when the detective ends up in the hospital, scully brings her a change of clothing <3
when she is so shaken by what she sees in episode 13 that she goes to the FBI’s onsite therapist; she’s too scared to tell mulder how she feels because “i don’t want him to feel like he has to protect me”
(as if there was ever going to be a choice; he is the protector and he Will protect, it's just his nature)
((and then later sobbing into his arms, realizing she doesn’t have to always put on a front))
toads start falling from the sky in episode 14, so she rationalizes that they likely came from a nearby tornado. this is a scully-approved theory.
they’re investigating a murder in the same episode, and a teenager starts pouring her absolutely horrific trauma out to both of them, scully holds her while she sobs into her jacket
honestly any time either of them know weird information, i love it. she says that it would take hours for a snake to eat a man and then weeks for it to digest in episode 14, and mulder makes some funny remark but it’s sooo endearing to me. she knows her snake facts.
then in episode 15, she notes poison in someone’s blood, but specifically that the poison comes from pufferfish eaten in Japan… girl i’m crying, she just knows stuff!
during that same case, they get rooms near each other like always, and she knocks on a door thinking it’s mulder’s. he doesn’t answer. she walks in and hears water running, so she just talks to him through the door to the bathroom. and i love this so much. i love that they are close enough to just walk into each other’s rooms and talk from behind the door while the other showers. it’s such married behavior.
working on the case in episode 16, we see her at home wearing a flannel, checking her computer, still serving looks but now giving casual
(and seeing the art she keeps on her walls- little postcards of beach scenes <3)
in the same episode, she knows mulder left to go get himself in trouble, so she bursts into skinner’s office to ask for help. but she feels bad for barging in on skinner, so she apologizes to him. which was very sweet.
when mulder is gone, she goes to his apartment to look for clues, and falls asleep on his couch
(and when X knocks on the door, she knows he is hiding something, and screams at him to tell her where he is)
this whole monologue from episode 17, which i loved more than life itself:
“several aspects of this case remain unexplained, suggesting the possibility of paranormal phenomena. but i am convinced that to accept such conclusions is to abandon all hope of understanding the scientific events behind them. many of the things i have seen have challenged my faith and my belief in an ordered universe, but this uncertainty has only strengthened my need to know, to understand, and to apply reason, to those things which seem to defy it”
(and that is just Her, isn't it? the need to understand, to rationalize. the worldview shaped on science- if she doesn't understand something, it's because a key piece is missing, and she'll find it. because the world Has to work that way, has to be bound by a greater logic, even if it is yet to be understood. to imagine otherwise would be impossible, to imagine otherwise would be to abandon hope in everything, and she cannot abandon hope)
((and maybe the idea that the world being something she cannot perfectly comprehend is a failing of her own understanding makes me a little emotional. but still))
she says that the whole loaves and fishes deal was a parable in episode 21; she is not a biblical literalist
(she then makes some sassy remark about things generating spontaneously, and mulder laughs in the corner. good to know he thinks she is funny)
every single time she answers the phone, she says “mulder, it’s me”, and idk i just think it’s so endearing
she thinks she might have been infected with a killer disease in episode 22, but mulder calls, so she tells him she’s okay and to take care of himself out there.... those are the last words she chooses, just in case they never talk again </3
and every time she says unsettling things, like “could be the residue of burnt human flesh” or “darkness covers a multitude of sins”, both in episode 23, i eat that up
reassuring her student who has just become a detective that she is doing just fine!!!
and then going to said student's funeral when things do not turn out fine... she loves her students that she taught for like 3 months so much :(
getting pulled aside by skinner and her bosses after mulder just acted wild in episode 25, and denying that she had seen any top secret files even though they say they will fire her if she lies lmaooo <- she is a ride or die!!!
but also going to his place, demanding assurance that she is doing the right thing by assisting him, and i love that. i love a character who will break all of the rules as long as they believe they are doing the thing that is morally Right, and that definition is so deeply her own, but she is committed to it, and she'll do anything to stick by it. and he just says something about getting the code that he wants broken, and despite how awful he's being, she goes through with it anyway because it's the Right thing to do.
later, her being the one to realize that mulder should not leave the house after his father was killed because he will be the prime suspect (he does not listen to this sound advice)
he stumbles into her place with a million degree fever, and she carefully lays him down in her own bed, despite the fact that he is soaked in his dead father's blood. and she takes care of him.
this one honestly deserves its own post because it is so incredible, but: shooting mulder with enough precision to get him to knock off his wild behavior that was going to make him look like he killed his dad, but not actually HURT him, then finding out krychek was putting LSD in his water, knocking him out, and driving 2 days to New Mexico to get him where he needed to be. AFTER he had been acting wild because he was inadvertently drugged, and had accused her of spying on him and being a traitor. that level of love is deep. very very deep. she is a Lover.
#this is a reupload because i made a typo on the og post and i couldn't bear it so. v2. sorry to all who witnessed v1.#i'm trying to remember what i had said in the tags originally.#something about how she is just one of the characters of all time#she's smart... like when she figured out how to save mulder from alien poison or that he was going to make himself look guilty#and she's kind- when she let some random kid sob into her jacket and brought the detective clothes and tended to drugged out mulder#and she is brave- being willing to disobey her bosses to do the right thing and shoot mulder to save him and admit when she is scared#(even though she originally would not do such a thing- that is character development)#and she is funny but it's dry and understated so it doesn't get the appreciation it deserves#yes this whole post and tags are just a dana scully love post and that is okay. in many ways this is a love account.#hope to start s3 tomorrow because i'm not feeling well today but who knows... maybe i will suddenly perk up and feel better#and we can get started tn? can't rule it out i guess#dana scully#the x files#txf
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metalhead ghost who’s been in moshpits since he was a kid and is now a veteran of the scene and the self appointed look out. he keeps an eye out for anyone falling or passing out, kicks the shit out of anyone crowd killing or putting their hands where they shouldn’t
and he’s been keeping an eye on the punk in the kilt since he saw him throw himself headfirst into the wall of death
he looks like the type to start shit - loud and aggressive as anyone else here but a punk doesn't end up at a metal show for no reason - but there's also something niggling at him that he's gonna end up getting himself hurt. and ghost can’t tell if he’s going to do it on purpose
if he does, ghost needs to know. he uses these places as an escape - the music, the violence, the community - always has and he knows all to well how easily an escape can curdle and become destructive. he’s seen too many people lost to the darker parts of the scene, almost lost himself to it; he doesn’t want it to happen to anyone else if he can help it
so when he sees the punk sweating his mohawk off, his movements becoming looser and uncoordinated, he has no issues with yanking him out of the pit and pulling him away from the crowd; pushing him up against the venue wall and ordering him to open his mouth
the glaze that falls over his eyes concerns him even as he obediently lets his mouth fall open. he was right; the punk’s severely dehydrated, tongue and gums far to pale and along with the look in his eyes, he half-thinks he’s about to drop
he reflexively tightens his hold on his jaw to keep him up and the punk shivers, a flush creeping up his neck. an almost confused arousal joins the haze in his eyes and ghost smirks beneath his mask
looks like metal shows aren’t the only thing the punk is new to
#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#ghost has a split tongue bc i said so#and soaps mohawk is overgrown and fluffy as hell running down the back of his neck#once ghost forces water down his throat soap comes back online and is his usual self and ghost starts to like him even more#he likes having someone that can go toe to toe with him#i wish i knew more about the scene so i could expand this but i dont know shit about punk or metal culture lmao#i do know itd be mid 20s soap and late 30s early 40s ghost and soaps just self destructing#wanting to be an artist but hes being strangled both by his family who think its a waste when hes so mathematically smart#and by the artistic community who hate his pieces for being too chaotic and non traditional#ghost keeps running into him at shows and he recognises that self destruction all too well#and he sees him declining and knows if he doesnt step in no one will#he was a drug addict after getting caught up in abusive relationship with roba#and it was only his brothers death that pulled him out of his spiral#he doesnt want death to be the end of this spitfire punks story#soaps also got that classic catholic guilt internalised homophobia going for him#hes only ever known the bad parts of the scene he didnt know there was anything different#until ghost introduces him to price and nikolai whove been together longer than hes been alive#and to gaz and farah and alex who make no secret of their love for each other and soap realises just how deprived he is of healthy love#not when his parents barely stand him not when his sister only got married when she fell pregnant and they forced her into the church#with a man she hardly knew just so they could keep their reputation#just ghost showing soap theres more to life than violence and hatred and theres so much love for him to discover#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#john soap mactavish#soap cod#save post
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Guy who takes HRT so fucking wrong
#original art#original character#drugs cw#just in case#nox ocs#nox art#(vincent)#(ami)#for a smart guy hes so incredibly stupid
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#transformers#mtmte#transformers idw#whirl#trailbreaker#trailcutter#transformers trailcutter#transformers whirl#shout out to tumblr user underlordmenace for being so fucking smart go check out their art of these guys#drug use#alcohol
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I don't know where the overlap of tgaa fans and ACD Holmes fans is but are people aware that the reason as to why anaesthesia doesn't work on Sholmes is because his original version used to abuse opioids
#it's actually I think a very smart way of implementing the acd canon into tgaa#like ofc they couldn't have outright said he's a drug addict but it's a cool nod to it#As is the battle of maiwand which is where Watson fought and injured his leg#I tried to search online if people mentioned before but I haven't seen it so I'm sorry if it's widespread knowledge#I am not a frequent visitor of fandom spaces 🙇#tgaa
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𝐿𝑎𝑑𝑖𝑒𝑠 𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑛 : 𝑀𝑒𝑛 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑝𝑢𝑟𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑘 𝑓𝑢𝑙𝑓𝑖𝑙𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑏𝑦 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑒....
#Unfortunately I've been hurt too many times by this...#Know your worth ladies!#you are smart and beautiful! Never forget that!#The easiest way to drive me away is really when I see them entertain other souls..doing drugs... Etc...#personal
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we went over the 14yr long torture session in my last therapy visit actually, and i told her that toward the end i was fantasizing about and then actively considering walking into traffic because if i got catastrophically injured then they would have to treat my pain. and she told me that's not an uncommon thing for people to do. that she has heard that many times before.
like think about that. we are so moralistic about drug use and have politicized a particular type of medicine so much, and doctors are so uncompassionate toward and even suspicious of patients who are in pain because of it, that it's NOT UNCOMMON for people who are otherwise not suicidal to start completely genuinely longing to get hit by a fucking car just for the chance to be oh so graciously provided the absolute bare fucking minimum of care.
think about how many different things have pain as a symptom. how many things have pain as the only symptom the patient is aware of. how many of them are life or death crises. heart attacks. blood clots. strokes. bleeding ulcers. those are just what i can think of off the top of my fucking head, AND I'M NOT A FUCKING DOCTOR.
what i had, for example, feels exactly like appendicitis. and they left it for fourteen years because my only symptom was excruciating pain and i didn't fit their stupid little (completely unsupported by evidence, btw) diagnostic mnemonic. if it had been appendicitis, or anything else as immediately deadly that "just" hurts, i would have fucking died the same night i got sent home from the emergency room with "medical" "advice" to take some tylenol and rest - for the first time, that is. out of dozens. how many people do die that way?
because addicts are Bad. and because doctors are too arrogant and biased to practice medicine on the basis of evidence and informed consent when the profit model and conservative propaganda make it soooo easy to stay in the good old days of paternalism instead.
#jack facts#medical#soc#i want to tag this ''opioid crisis'' but i truly don't think i can manage to type it without the quote marks lmao#and like my thing and none of the things i mentioned are fixable via opioids obviously and fucking obviously i know that#but the fucking circus about opioid use and how prescribing opioids Must be avoided at All Costs No Matter What#results in this Us vs Them mentality of The Treacherous Drug Seeker vs The Nurse/Doctor Too Smart To Be Fooled#which is precisely why i said in my last post that they're ''like cops''#they have this perception that they are being constantly rushed by the lying swindling Enemy#and are so smug about it when they believe they have magically divined when someone reporting pain is faking or exaggerating#based on whatever the fuck they individually have decided is Drug Seeking Behavior TM TM TM#which are almost fucking always just normal fucking behavioral responses to pain and fear!!!!#and then that person is not a Patient (as cops are to Victim) they are instead an Addict (as cops are to Criminal)#and that person not only does not get pain relief they don't get anything the god damn fuck else either except a fucking attitude#and people fucking die. of whatever is hurting in the first place or from their endurance for endless torment running out.#disproportionately women and people of color and fat people and the mentally ill and disabled and the poor and children and the elderly and#nurses/doctors 🤝 cops 🤝 soldiers 🤝 ceos 🤝 mass murderers who are socially celebrated for heroism#not to put too radical and fine a point on it or anything lol#ANYWAY#i'll probably delete this or at least the tags lmao#whatever. i'm going to go lie in bed and have symptoms until 6 am when i have to get up to go be retraumatized at the medical lab :)#neglect#drug use#suicide#car crash#illness#ask to tag
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i’m still thinking about Q!Pac oh my god dude. the guy lost his best friend/soulmate, fell into a depressive episode, lost his son very soon after, another one of his friends started taking drugs to deal with the grief, HE started taking the drugs because otherwise he was just crying all the time, hurt himself while desperately trying to develop a cure for the drugs, DUG GRAVES FOR HIS SOULMATE, SON, AND ANOTHER FRIEND, got it in his head that he was the least valuable member of the Favela Five, was incredibly suicidal, and YET HIS RESEARCH THAT HE DID ON THE DRUGS WHILE HE WAS STILL TAKING THEM IS WHAT LED TO CELLBIT BEING ABLE TO CURE BOTH PAC AND FOREVER. “WEAKEST NEMBER OF THE FAVELA FIVE” MY ASS, BABYGIRL YOU’RE SO SMART AND STRONG NEVER DOUBT YOURSELF AGAIN
#qsmp#HE DID THAT!!!! HE FOUND THE CURE!!!!!!#WHILE STILL UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF THOSE DRUGS!!!!#LIKE BRO. UR SMART. U DID THAT. NEVER THINK BADLY OF YOURSELF AGAIN OR I’M GONNA CRY
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i started watching the queens gambit and unbelievably predictably i am already obsessed with beth. which is unfortunate given the current anya taylor joy oversaturation in the cultural zeigiest
#im sorry she was made in a lab to be my character type. as if its my fault#i love unpleasant gremlin girls with autism and drug problems that are too smart for their own good <- daisy#the queens gambit
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quite possibly a controversial take but i really dont fucking care but i think its actually critical that steph's relationship with bruce not be defined as "parent-child"/"father-daughter" and its negatively impacting steph's character to claim bruce is "the closest thing to a father shes ever had" or "the best parent in her life" because it ignores the actual effect of arthur brown on who steph's character is, her actions, her reasoning, and also ignores stephanie's relationship with her mother.
#stephanie brown#She should not even be one of bruce's “not kids” i think she would hate that#Im not even a steph fan!!! I actually quite dislike her!!!#My hands are acting up too much for me to fully explain#But steph and bruce should not be pseudo parent child!!!#I actually think its real disrespectful to her mom crystal brown#Woman in a bad if not abusive marriage with a drug addiction and a kid#To discard her to call bruce stephs best parent#robin 1993#Far be it for ME of all people to defend arthur brown#Aka white man who hypes himself up to be sooo smart and clever#But his and steph's dynamic is intrinsic to at LEAST her early character#Crystal Brown did not quit her addiction for people to be calling bruce stephanies best parent
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Not to make a post about a horror movie that was never really popular on here, but I am pretty sure that Danny was killed because they were about to cheat
#I saw a lot of people theorizing about how maybe he was too smart?#Nope he was simply the one holding the lighter with the intent to solve the ice cube problem#In a way which was not intended by Minos#Makes it interesting tho that they didn't do anything to stop Zoey from destroying the cameras but that's probably because she left one#Until the very last moment#Anyway I need somebody to explain to me why the drug room was Mike's room???#horror tag#escape room 2019#I actually need four more of those movies because the premise is!!! But the execution was so :'(
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as someone who was always praised for their intelligence growing up, i genuinely need to be reminded that i’m physically attractive (to some people) from time to time
#‘you’re so smart’ i’ve heard a billion times but ‘you’re so pretty’ is like a drug#i doesn’t happen often so when it does it’s memorable#this is unhealthy i’m sure in some ways but it’s how my brain is wired#does this make sense?#alsoooo#(my bf does tell me i’m pretty/cute/beautiful/hot daily but i’m talking about from others)#he gets mad at me when i brush his comments off lol
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Fallen: Part 9 - How Much is that Doggie in the Window
I was supposed to write this ages ago, but misread fallen as fleeting on my to do list so :p Also, I do adore the hallucinations in the way of 'they're hurting my guy :)' They're fun. I have plans for them.
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Part 8
Content: Villain whumpee, hallucinations, miserable times, wet cat vibes, nonsexual nudity, discussion of past injuries, mentions of drugs and needle marks
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It was raining now. Kolt was completely drenched, his thin shirt and sweatpants doing nothing to protect him from the elements. The nice woman who had been helping him had needed to go to work and gave him a little bit of money, which helped him get pretty close to where he needed to go, but not far enough,
He shuffled through the rain, the lights shimmering before his blurry eyes as he went, arms wrapped around himself as he sniffled and allowed himself to look less and less like the man he had been before.
Ah, look at him. Like a soaked puppy dog, Gambler said with relish in his voice.
“Shut up,” Kolt said softly, pushing past the dark hallucination. He swore he could feel the rain slicked poncho the man was wearing under his scarred palm.
Ooh, we’re brave today, aren’t we, Watcher said, which sent chills down Kolt’s spine, unrelated to the weather. Watcher didn’t speak often, but when he did, it was usually a portent of something terrible coming his way. He hoped this time wasn’t one of those occasions.
We should do something about that, Beater said, stepping out of an alley. In the past, Kolt would have just ignored them. Rationalized that they were just hallucinations. But they weren’t just hallucinations any more. They could affect him now. Force him to do things he didn’t want to do. They could hurt him or stop his progress, so he treated them like cautious enemies.
He moved carefully, not allowing them to corner him or surround him.
So fast when you’re let out of your cage, hmm? Beater said, jogging to catch up, trying to get ahead of Kolt, but Kolt turned down another street.
Never let them know your next move, Watcher whispered in that two toned voice. It made Kolt want to throw up.
Where are you going, puppy? Shouldn’t you be in a window? How is anyone supposed to want to buy you if you getting all muddy and bruised in the streets? Gambler asked, and before Kolt could get out of the way he felt something trip him, sending him sprawling.
They had to be real. There was no way a hallucination would be so real, right?
Kolt shook his head, pushing himself out of the mud. He couldn’t think about it right now. It would only slow him down.
Persistent, Beater commented, impressed. Looks like they didn’t take all of the fight out of you. But we knew that. You are so so good at hiding what is actually going on in that big brain of yours.
You were such a good dog for Dr. LeAnne for so long. It is amazing you’re able to remember anything after that, Gambler added and all three of the hallucinations laughed.
Kolt tried to drown them out, his heart beating faster when he saw the familiar door ahead.
“Please,” he couldn’t help but whisper to himself. “Please still be here.”
The hallucinations, still laughing, hung back as he approached the door. He knocked, the sound weak under the sound of the rain. He waited, arms wrapped around himself again, water dripping out of his long hair and into his face as he waited.
Someone moved inside and the door opened. Dr. Dalley Hitchcock still looked the same, round of face and chest, friendly looking besides a dark look behind his eyes, and sturdy.
“Dalley,” Kolt breathed, emotions swelling up in his chest. Shame from being seen like this, gratitude and relief and hope, fear that he would be turned away because Dalley’s alliances had changed; everything. Kolt opened his mouth to explain, to be rational and ask for help politely, to apologize for the intrusion, but his eyes blurred further, obscuring Dalley’s features and a sob ripped out of his throat in such a manner that Kolt covered his mouth like he could take that and the rushing tears back.
“Kolt? Is that you? We thought you were dead,” Dalley said, reaching out and taking Kolt by the elbows to guide him inside, closing the door and blocking out those three clear shapes Kolt could always see even as he cried.
Kolt was sat in a chair, elbows propped on his knees as he tried to regain his composure.
“Where have you been?” Dalley asked, rummaging around and grabbing things. “Not even the Dragon Gang could figure out where you’d gone.”
Kolt shook his head in his hands. No one could find him except Gale. And Gale was who knows where.
“Kolt?”
Kolt wiped his face hard, sniffling and lifted his head. “I was in a lab somewhere,” he said with a grimace. “Look, I don’t really feel good, Dalley. Can this wait until-”
“No, of course. I apologize. That was insensitive of me. You wait there for a moment while I get some things ready in the bathroom and we’ll get you taken care of,” Dalley said, shuffling off.
Kolt was left among the piles of supplies and books, all at once chaotic and organized. Just like the last time he’d been here. He was grateful that Dalley was a creature of habit. Kolt would have been left wandering the streets looking for an ally for quite a while if Dalley had moved.
Dalley came back quickly and leaned down, taking Kolt by the elbows again to help him up. Kolt usually would have protested, but he did not think there was much left of his ego to rescue at the moment, muddy and bruised and scarred as he was.
Soon, he was sat in a chair in the bathtub, Dalley with rolled up sleeves and pant legs standing in the tub with him.
“Alright. Are you attached to these clothes? I’m thinking it would be easiest to just cut them off if you don’t mind.”
Kolt shook his head and Dalley got to work.
Kolt was naked in the chair as Dalley turned on the faucet, moving the shower head to where Kolt could touch it.
“That temperature alright for you?”
Kolt reached out and nodded. A warm shower. When was the last time he had one?
Dalley cleaned Kolt off quickly and efficiently, enough so that it was clear this was how he regularly treated the clients that came through his door.
As soon as Kolt was clean, Dally had him dry off and then stand up for a proper assessment.
Kolt wanted quietly as Dally tallied up his scars and old wounds, taking in the way he stood and the bruises around his elbows.
“Do you know what meds they had you on?” Dalley asked, prodding gently at the needle marks.
Kolt shook his head as Dalley moved his fingers and wrists, assessing any damage or loss of movement. “Something that made me weak and sick…. And it made my eyesight worse.”
Dalley clicked his tongue, looking up at Kolt’s face. “Here, sit down. I’ll check that for you.”
Kolt did, turning his head and letting Dalley push and pull at his face as he examined him.
“Do you still have your powers?”
“Yes,” Kolt said, flexing the hand he’d used to kill Kate.
“Alright, tell me when my finger becomes clear.”
Kolt did so and Dalley hummed, taking out a pen light to peer into Kolt’s eye.
“Did they want you for your power?”
Kolt had to fight very hard to keep from closing his eyes at the reminder. “Yes. They wanted to turn me into a weapon. They didn’t succeed.”
Dalley laughed. “I should hope not. Alright. Looks like you’ll need some physical therapy for a couple of your joints, your muscles are atrophied, your spine looks a little bit messed up but that shouldn’t be a problem. The new healer Phoenix has working for him is incredible. Some of these scars might need a bit of surgery to loosen up and give you more movement back, you’re definitely going to need some surgery for this one-” Dalley tapped Kolt’s lip where the scar pulled everything so tight he knew teeth were always showing on that corner of his mouth- “Or else your teeth might dry up and fall out eventually. We’ll need full dental work up of course. Your eyes are a bit of a concern and I think we should consult someone about your powers just in case anything is wrong. Have you been experiencing any psychological effects from everything that happened?”
Should he lie? You should always tell your doctor the truth, but this…. This was different. Kolt wanted to wait it out and see if a few good nights of sleep and safety would help sort him out.
“A little dizziness and some strange ocular illusions, but I do not know if that is because of my brain or my eyes,” Kolt said. There, good enough for now. He’d explain more if it became necessary.
“Okay. We’ll just keep monitoring you. Now I-”
“When was the last time you saw Gale?”
“What?”
“Gale. When did you see him last?”
Dalley leaned back, thinking for a moment. “A few months ago, I think. He said he was going undercover. Looking for you, actually. We thought it a bit of a waste of time, but things were quiet back then, so we weren’t going to keep him from doing so. Did he help you out?”
“I think so. I vaguely remember him, and I have suspicions that the scientists who had me have him.”
Dalley narrowed his eyes at Kolt. “I will tell the Phoenix and we can see what we can do, but-”
“No. I’m going to-”
“Absolutely not! You have a long recovery ahead of you,” Dalley said sharply in a tone that reminded Kolt exactly why he respected the doctor.
Dallley blew out a breath and said, “You are going to dry up and get dressed, eat something and go to bed. Understand me?”
“Yes, sir,” Kolt said. There wasn’t much he could do now, after all. He was just too tired. A bed sounded heavenly right about now.
Dalley nodded, putting a hand on Kolt’s shoulder and leaning in a little so Kolt could see his expression clearly. “I am glad to see you alive. We searched for you for as long as we could. Gale never gave up, and he won’t give up under whatever treatment those lunatics put him through.”
“That’s what I’m afraid of,” Kolt sighed, shaking his head. “I’m just so glad you’re still here.”
Dalley laughed. “Well, you know me. I am loathe to leave my little crevices.”
Kolt hummed, amused as he slowly got up, ignoring the way his hip and spine clicked as he did so.
So, Kolt followed Dalley’s advice, giving Dalley a pee sample before going to bed so he could send it off alongside some of Kolt’s hair to be tested for what he’d been drugged with.
Kolt, now clothed in warm pajamas and properly clean after one more shower, climbed into bed, curling up under the blankets.
His mind felt heavy, and despite his desire to think and to try and make plans, he couldn’t keep his eyes from drifting closed, sleep overcoming his muddled, exhausted brain.
Part 10
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